songs with lyrics that are easy to understand -- these are the best.


boys like girls -- learning to fall

Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can't change your mind
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me



i really dont understand why i try so hard sometimes.

even more than that, i dont understand why i'm just hanging on. is this really worth my time and effort?

will i finally be given the recognition that i want, or will everything just fall apart again in the end?

nowadays this is more a liability than anything else.


someone give me my happiness back. anyone. please?

xoxo;
12:49 pm

random thought: this song is amazing.

blink 182 - stay together for the kids

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what
she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right



but random thought again -- what the hell does it mean? o.O

xoxo;
8:21 am

the sky looks so ominous now.

as much as i love rainy weather, dark ominous skies are a no-no. or rather.. dark ominous skies alone are no-no. if its raining and theres dark ominous sky then i dont mind. heh ^^;

but the sky today. it looks really scary.



edit: shaun wants to watch balls of fury ;D

xoxo;
5:07 pm

Boys Like Girls -- Hero - Heroine

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

xoxo;
8:54 pm

aaron's solution to the problem i posted yesterday:

cannot pia so hard. take things slow and dont overmug lest we run out of stamina.

first rule is that your life cannot change because of exams. (i thought first rule is 'just whack.'? o.O)

i guess it works out. haha. visit his blog. theres a real interesting post there.

xoxo;
3:01 pm

shaun stole this quiz from wenhao's blog.

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

anyhow, stanley said something during the prelim period that kinda worries me. the prelim is only 2 weeks long and half the papers are over within a week, and we're losing steam after that one week. the A's are like 3 weeks long. then how. o.o;;

xoxo;
10:43 am

my neopets acc got hacked again. like ARGH. haha. but this time i lost like 14m, so i'm a little too lazy to rebuild. so i'll stop for now.

this is like a sure sign that someone's telling me to start mugging. which i should. owells. haha

xoxo;
11:53 am

yay. x)

xoxo;
3:24 am

prelims are all over. overall feeling -- bad.

at least its the motivation that i need to get my study engine going.

xoxo;
6:34 pm

wtf..

xoxo;
5:35 pm

random thought, but is alicia like. a really ominous name or smt?

i mean look at claymore's alicia and valkyrie profile 2's alicia. they both have this.. scary aura about them. especially the claymore one. hm. or maybe not 'scary' but like. double-sided? err like two personalities. claymore's alicia is in one form, an emotionless person. in the other form, she's big and powerful and scary. in valkyrie profile, in one form she's a really cute girl, in the other she's a scary valkyrie. *shrugs*

but i dunno, i like the name. when i grow up and if i get a daughter, i wanna name her alicia. ;o

xoxo;
6:48 pm

something damn stupid happened today at jack's place.

me: in that set, can i change my dessert?
waitress: change to what?
me: is there any option to change my dessert?
waitress: no.

someone should tell service industry people that asking redundant questions is the no. 1 surefire way to make a customer pissed off. in the previous example, was the extra question asked by the waitress of any use at all? heh. i felt like punching her.

oh. and to all: my msn status is something you should not question, unless it says 'online'. when it says 'online', i may or may not be there, since it says 'online' but not 'at the keyboard'. but on the other hand, when it says 'away' i'd advise you not to try your luck, cos you'd be disappointed.

that's that, unless my msn failed to display my 'away' status yesterday. if the latter is really the case, i would like to extend my sincerest apologies to 5 or 6 unfortunate people.

random thought of the day: wavy hair is nice.

i'm feeling angsty.

xoxo;
6:43 pm

a technique i developed just for ki paper1 -- the flash pen (高速筆　kousoukupitsu).

the main idea: release all the energy in your writing arm and let it go berserk. this way your handwriting looks worse than rong'en's, but you gain lightning writing speed. in essence, you will be writing faster than you think.

but you must grasp your limits; work too much on this skill and your mind goes into your arm, and you end up releasing too much energy, and will end up awakening.

xoxo;
8:17 pm

on second thought, i'd much rather take my exams in the classrooms.

the atmosphere there isnt half as pressurising at that in the hall.

xoxo;
3:27 pm

hot devil is great, as always.

xoxo;
7:41 pm

We take sour sips
From life's lush lips
And we shake, shake, shake the hips
In relationships

Stomp out this disaster town
You'll put your eyes to the sun and say,
"I know you're only blinding to keep back
What the clouds are hiding."

And we might've started singing just a little soon
We're throwing stones at a glass moon

[Chorus]
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning

Whoah-oh...

We keep the beat
With your blistered feet
And we bullet the words
At the mockingbirds singing
Slept through the weekend and dreaming
Of sinking with the melody
Of the cliffs of eternity
Got postcards from my
Former self saying:

"How've you been?"

And we might've said goodbyes
Just a little soon
(Stomp out this disaster town)
Whoa, Robbing lips and
Kissing banks under this moon


[Chorus] [x2]

Ohh…

It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche!
When the pearls in our shells got up to dance!
You call me a bad tipper of the cradle!
Tired young fawns on hunter's lawns!
We're the has-beens of husbands!
Sharpening the knives of young wives!
Take two years and call me when you're better!
Take tears that are mine, find yourself wetter!

[Chorus]

Woah..ooo!
We're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning

xoxo;
11:41 am

Linkin park -- Bleed it out

Yea here we go for the hundredth time,
Hand grenade pins in every line,
Throw 'em up and let something shine.
Going out of my f**king mind.
Filthy mouth, no excuse.
Find a new place to hang this noose.
String me up from atop these roofs.
Knot it tight so I won't get loose.
Truth is you can stop and stare,
bled myself out and no one cares.
Dug a trench out, laid down there
With a shovel up out to reach somewhere.
Yeah someone pour it in,
Make it a dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out.
Go, stop the show.
Choppy words and a sloppy flow.
Shotgun opera, lock and load,
Cock it back and then watch it go.
Mama help me, I've been cursed,
Death is rolling in every verse.
Candy paint on his brand new hearse.
Can't contain him, he knows he works.
F**k this hurts, I won't lie.
Doesn't matter how hard I try.

Half the words don't mean a thing,
And I know that I won't be satisfied.
So why, try ignoring him.
Make it a dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out.
I've opened up these scars,
I'll make you face this.
I pulled myself so far,
I'll make you face this now.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out.
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i'm changing the lock and keeping the key this time.

xoxo;
8:47 am

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter.
And I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better.
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Family in crisis that only grows older.
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I am broken, but I am hoping.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I am crying, a part of me's dying.
And these are, these are, the
confessions(pause) of a broken heart!

And I wear all your old clothes your polo sweater.
I dream of another you, one who would never.
Never, leave me alone to pick up the pieces. Daddy to hold me, that's what I needed.

So,why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I don't know you, but I still want to.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
Cause these are, these are,
the confessions....!!! of a broken heart!
Of a broken heart!

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I ........
I love you!

Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I don't know you, but I still want to.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
Did you ever love me?
these are....aaaa..ar...are.... the confessions.........!!! of a broken heart!

Ohh ... yeah

And I wait for the postman to bring me a letter.
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you dont understand me, and neither does she. dont try to impose your philosophies on me.

i'm letting go.

xoxo;
8:15 am

the hardest part is finding out that
your dream is just a dream.

xoxo;
1:27 pm

Linkin Park -- Given Up

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me!

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all awayI'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me!

GOD!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my...
Put me out of my fucking misery!

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

xoxo;
9:34 pm

mood these days has been.. more or less terrible. aye.

i mean theres like not really any reason to be happy right. we're in holidays but yet in the midst of exams. the A levels are in a few months and those stupid questions still feel like.. you know. and everyone's mugging now, so i cant even play and not feel guilty doing it. these people mug and feel satisfaction. when i mug i feel worse and worse each time i do. and when i dont, i cant play in peace. and i cant get to sleep even.

he who said 'this guy ah. outside seems so calm but inside maybe in turmoil' couldnt have been more correct, especially now.

*sigh* i shd just paint my bedroom walls black so that i feel more at home.

being j2 sucks. it gives you a whole new idea to the word 'depression'. thought you got it bad in sec 4? WRONG. come to j2 and we'll show you.

okay fine i'm bitching now. better shut up before people send psychiatrists to my doorstep.

xoxo;
4:02 pm

i stole this off cheryl's blog. quite interesting but the qns were err.. structured weirdly. haha


Congratulations. You are YELLOW.

YELLOWS are motivated by FUN. They are inviting and embrace life as a party that they're hosting. They love playful interaction and can be extremely sociable. They are highly persuasive and seek instant gratification. YELLOWS need to be adored and praised. While YELLOWS are carefree, they are sensitive and highly alert to others' agendas to control them. YELLOWS typically carry within themselves the gift of a good heart.

YELLOWS need to look good socially, and friendships command a high priority in their lives. YELLOWS are happy, articulate, engaging of others and crave adventure. Easily distracted, they can never sit still for long. They embrace each day in the "present tense" and choose people who, like themselves, enjoy a curious nature. YELLOWS are charismatic, spontaneous, and positive; but can also be irresponsible, obnoxious, and forgetful. When others interact with you, as a YELLOW you respond to them best if they take a positive, upbeat approach and promote light-hearted, creative, and fun interactions with you.

Understand that no two YELLOWS are exactly alike. Although you share the same core motivation as many others, your personality is still unique to you alone.

this was from http://www.thecolorcode.com/

and ehh. the other thingy ah. i do later on lah. that one's damn long. and i saw my name at the bottom. =x

anyway, ytd was class outing! err actually not really. dunno how come so many ppl cannot come.. then lunch became like a 3 part thing. first it was the 6 of us, then the two of them, then wait for the last one. then later also din wanna watch movie, so we went to hang out at the arcade. (stupid arcade downgrade their dmV to dm9. rarrrrrr) so yea. that was our classs outing. but the conversations were quite funny at some points. but err.. i forgot what le. so yeah. haha. anyway it must have been the first or second class outing i'd gone to, so.. haha. just go lah. but i dint go back cat high! i must go back next year. dun care army or wad. hahaha.

yeps. =)

xoxo;
12:26 pm