...can anyone explain to me why more than a quarter of my traffic comes from the US and less than half from singapore?

xoxo;
8:34 pm

yesterday i dreamt..

i dreamt that i died. o.o;

apparently someone was hunting me down. and i died by a gunshot to the head. and at the end of it, i told myself that after i died, if i just opened my eyes, perhaps i would open my eyes in someone else's perspective.


so i opened my eyes, and damn. it was 430am -.-;

xoxo;
8:44 am

and the result: rained out. ;o

the match will continue (or rather, start) next tuesday.

anyway something funny happened today. i called e2max to make a booking for this saturday, and this chirpy malay-sounding girl picked up the phone. so i went through the usual booking procedures (erm. i thought their guitar heroes was on xbox 360, not wii o.O) and then she started asking for my contact details. so i gave my number. then she asked my name, and i said 'shaun'. then she asked me how she should spell that. i said 's-h-a-u-n'.

then she goes 'shaun, do i know you? *giggle*'

weird!! hahaha. i thought that service-providers should be less personal (not meaning less friendly) in their line of work. i mean it was totally unexpected!

just the other day the girl and i were waiting for a table at pizza hut and the frontline waiter requested that we wait for awhile since they were clearing our table. meanwhile, we browsed their menu. when we were done, the waiter noticed this and asked us 'how was your day?'

i mean this level of personal-ness is fine. just casual talk. but asking me if i know her. hahaha. interesting, but i think that a service-provider should provide the same service to all their customers, regardless of whether they are friends or not. in that case, asking if you know the customer doesnt really matter, and hence shouldnt be asked in a phone conversation when we kinda wanna make it snappy.

but since it was a one-line kinda thing, i obliged her and said 'i dont think so', and laughed it off myself.




my dog's still having fun with her little stud friend. -.-;; she's a damn horny bitch lah. hahaha


and where's my djmax portable!!! back ordered ships when stock comes in. ._. i'll be waiting forever!!! play-asia.com, please dont fail me! ><

xoxo;
10:32 pm

Mm ba ba de
Um bum ba de
Um bu bu bum da de
Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Um ba ba be
Um ba ba be
De day da
Ee day da - that's o.k.
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher
Pressure on people - people on streets
Day day de mm hm
Da da da ba ba
O.k.
Chippin' around - kick my brains around the floor
These are the days it never rains but it pours
Ee do ba be
Ee da ba ba ba
Um bo bo
Be lap
People on streets - ee da de da de
People on streets - ee da de da de da de da
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming 'Let me out'
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher high high
Pressure on people - people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
but it's so slashed and torn
Why - why - why ?
Love love love love love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love give love give love give love
give love give love give love give love give love
'Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And loves dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure
Under pressure
Pressure

xoxo;
8:23 pm

can i get rid of the loneliness just by resigning myself to being alone?

xoxo;
6:20 pm

its ironic that her blogspot is bringing me so many more visitors while she's at camp than when she wasnt. o.O

yes i know the structure of that sentence is weird. my english sucks now k!

anyhow, my dog just left me. she's gonna be enjoying herself for the next 3-4 days until she comes home. then in 2 months i'll have little pups running around the house!! muarharharharh.

;D

xoxo;
7:59 pm

yes, its possible to be attached and feel lonely.

or maybe you feel lonely only because you're attached? maybe the non-attached people dont feel the loneliness so badly because they're already used to it. or maybe because they have a life!!

argh. i need some weekday entertainment. can someone like. ask me out or something? okay that sounds weird. er. ask me out on an outing. a random outing. not asking me out as in dating me. or if its a pretty girl i dont mind.

BUT I DIGRESS!

but argh! my life consists of two things -- work (NS), psp. i need more of a life, seriously. and because i'm such an intrinsically emo and nei4 xiang4 person, its hard for me to get a good clique of friends to go out with. so i'm typically sitting around at home and emoing. but emoing for 6 months can get mighty boring. especially since i have another, well... EIGHTEEN more *king months to go. emoing is especially bad when staying home alone (yes i'm on mc today). the thoughts in your head kinda start thinking about where your friends are, or even if you have friends. this is the case for me anyhow. and yes. these thoughts become emotions. and i become a fully-fledged emo person. that's why i say -- cut on the dotted line. ;o

so i guess, even if i'm so damn emo and screwed up, i still need to be around people. its like a paradox in itself. i'm nei4 xiang4 yet i wanna be around people. so wrong! i should just choose one niche and stick to it. but bleh.


anyhow, notice how i cant remember the english word for nei4 xiang4. its cool that my chinese has improved since starting work at cmpb. my english has pretty much died. its so dead that even brane and string theories cannot predict its existence. so what shall i do now? i'm stuck in-between with neither chinese nor english perfectly usable. i think i should just resign myself to keeping quiet and watching the world go by. which means i shd start getting used to being an emo loner and stop wanting to be around people.

I NEED TO START LOVING ALONENESS!!

yes i do.

and yes i think that the best (or at least, longest) blog entries are written when one is in a low mood. when one is too happy the words kinda go out. i mean who reads a blog that says stuff like ponies, unicorns and rainbows? or rather. few people would write a blog and say that the world is so fulfilling, so much do to, so much time, i love my life etc. i'm of the impression that most good movies, poetry and art is themed around a negative aspect of the world. like suffering. or war. or hate. or devils. or maybe its just because i tend to notice these more. =o but still! i watched this scene from a show somewhere. it says that all happy stories are the same. people do what they want/like or they get what they want/like, and all's fine and dandy. its boring having to read so many stories. its nice, however, reading stories that differ. and these stories differ in the sense that they are all based around some form of sadness, and the sadness tends to arise from many different places. ideologies (i had a problem spelling that. BLAST.), health, love, money, relationships. and that's why its interesting.

so i guess, in order to keep my blog interesting, i need to stay sad. then people will read. but why would i want people to read anyway?

okay. this is going off course.

TOO LONG. i shall stop here. maybe my mindless ranting can go on again another day.

xoxo;
10:18 pm

darryl sent this to me.

its totally unreal lah. this girl looks like a kid. and she's 22!

http://www.opensubscriber.com/message/e-ketawa@yahoogroups.com/9546474.html

xoxo;
6:29 am

i havent spoken to mr chuckles in a long time.

i think he's getting lonely.

xoxo;
7:53 pm

my dog's period is here!!

what an intro. haha. but if all goes well, i'll be having a couple of pomeranian pups running around the house in 3 months.

the perfect birthday present. x)

xoxo;
8:35 pm

something cool just happened to me.

i wanted to talk to oneechan on msn, just as a random chat. but i didnt know what to talk about, so i decided not to click her name. 2 minutes later, she comes and chats me up.

this is super cool lah!!

xoxo;
9:36 pm

I HAVE AN IRRITATING ULCER.

its just damn huge and doesnt go down. but at least its shallow and no longer growing. bleh.

its getting pretty boring reading my blog. theres just nothing to blog about! and since my blog tends to talk about my thoughts rather than my actions and/or activities.. well just know that in ns you tend to not use much brain. so my thoughts have been pretty dull these days. like say.. how long more to lunch? how long more to xia4 ban1? is there prawn mee today? PAYDAY!!

yeah. not to mention that it takes to much of the day.

OH. i just remembered to blog about something. on saturday the girl and i were on an mrt to her home. on the train there were 3 PSPs (i had to capitalise the PSP or else it would be psps. o.O) all playing djmax 2. not to mention that of the three PSPs two had two players each. the other was a pretty tall girl.. AHEM and i digress!!

but yeah. djmax is a trend. can all those who have a psp and who have not yet tried the game please try it? now? do it quick while mininova isnt yet made to shut down!!

on another note, monster hunter is fun. and a real time waster. almost as zai as djmax.

and yeah. see my thoughts these days. ulcers and games and girls. isnt that just dull? so at this rate, dont blame me for the lack of blog entries kplzthx.

the weekend's almost over.


p.s. i just checked my tracker. apparently 70% of my viewers over the past 100 entries were searching for anime images and were linked form google's image search. that's an abnormally high influx of viewers for just google search. could someone be cracking down on anime images on blogs somehow? all with trackers please take a look!

xoxo;
8:06 pm

pessimists like me live for a day like this.

as a pessimist, i think that the worst will happen and hence prepare as such.

today i woke 45 minutes late, took 2 busses later than my usual, and still got to work on time.

rocking. ;D

xoxo;
9:51 pm