i sometimes wonder if what i did is correct. sometimes they do say that its better to regret something you did than to regret something you didnt do. could it be that, when interpreting it another way, it could become something more like 'regret after you have sinned, not before'..?

i actually felt quite alot about blogging about yesterday's wedding dinner just now, but i think i'm really not in the mood now.

xoxo;
8:54 pm

shaun was inspired.

and voila, new blogskin complete. this skin took me a good 3 hrs to do. and interestingly, the image took alot longer than the code did. maybe its cos.. if you look closely enough, you'll realise that the layout is almost exactly the same! hahaha.

but yeah. i wanted to use the image in the bottom right for quite some time. i did a temporary blogskin with it once, but i didnt like it. oneechan liked it, however, and i gave it to her. but she used a different image. >.>

so here i am, using it again. ;D

credits to advancedanime for the pic that i stole from them like. millenia ago.


comments anyone? i know that the headers are hard to read, but hell, who reads them anyway? hahaha.

and yeah its blackgreyPINK. i guess a slightly more feminine blogskin once in awhile never hurt anyone! i remember having pink and purple skins in the past. hahaha. this is such a change from my usual black.



so please, comments. =)

xoxo;
8:37 pm

random rant:

i hate it soooo much when i have a status on and people chat with me like as if i'm there. actually maybe that isnt so bad.

but i hate it when people fucking NUDGE me. its like i have nothing better to do than to chat with them!

actually, maybe just nudging isnt that bad. but WHY do some people have to nudge me while my status reads AWAY!? RARH. so irritated. >.>

okay. random rant over. ;D


anyway, people that like each other tend to become like each other! i've observed this on msn and on sms. muarharharharh.

oops not referring to you! random random ;D

xoxo;
4:26 pm

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
theres this saying that the quietest girls are the noisiest in bed

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
maybe it does hold true, yaknow?

my friend says:
>< not true!

my friend says:
i refuse to let it be true!

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
er

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
does that mean its true? ;D

my friend says:
no!

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
d'arvit!

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
well, only time will tell.

"Give the kids a show." -- EoZei// says:
not that i'd want to know though. hahaha

my friend says:
haha, then i'll make sure to tell you

my friend says:
uhh wait, NO





PWNED. ;D

xoxo;
8:35 pm

yesterday an interesting conversation went on between me and another friend, and kinda made me wonder if it is good to hold onto ideals while going through a relationship.

by ideals i mean the 'perfect' traits we see in some relationships, like for instance, where a guy would play the charming knight to his date, or where a girl would be the dependant, pining partner in a relationship.

ideal relationships. what are they anyway? its quite often that we hear of such things. things like 'girl and boyfriends should never argue in a relationship' or 'when in love, you only do what's best for the person' or 'if you love me, you would _______'. my question here is whether or not they truly exist, and whether or not we should keep holding on to the thought that such a relationship is possible.

personally i think that having the notion of an ideal in terms of relationships is completely wrong. here i would refer back to the law of pessimism (that i learnt from the most emo person i know) -- that hopes only cause disappointment; we should hope for nothing and be happy at what happens. consistently hoping, thinking, that one would find a charming knight or a dazzling princess would definitely dash one's hopes -- because of the fact that man (the general term, please.) is intrinsically flawed. it is not possible to be the perfect one.

it seems like in the above, i've been speaking quite alot about perfect people, rather than perfect relationships. perhaps imperfect people can create perfect relationships. maybe, just maybe, when two imperfect people come together, it is possible for the fusion to blend so harmonically that the two end up perfectly matched, in the sense that they agree similarly, disagree similarly and in general have similar opinions about things. maybe their heights just match perfectly, their features match each other right to the dot. maybe their parents-in-law would be the sweetest darlings and agree wholeheartedly to the couple's every decision.

but then again, would such a relationship be possible? taking it from a mathematical viewpoint, it doesnt seem quite likely that there would be two people who are so well matched, living in the same era and who have crossed paths and met each other. taking a leaf out of storybooks, even the best of friends would argue. i'm not talking about little petty arguments, but arguments caused by differences in viewpoints that can threaten to rip the friendship apart. between friends there isnt even any opinion regarding childcare, family planning and sex to argue about, so what more a couple that will have to share their everything with each other?

if one expects one's gf to be a dazzling princess, one's gf may expect one to be prince charming as well. to take it into the lingo of modern everyday life, 'dont expect me to be prince charming if you dont dress up like the victoria's secret girls'. having such expectations placed upon one's back will definitely cause stress fractures, will it not?

in the end, i guess, perhaps embracing the ideals whilst not imposing it upon a relationship is a good thing. man is imperfect, but can always aim towards being perfect. i guess that is the way a relationship grows -- starting out imperfect then ending more like the ideal prince charming-dazzling princess relationship that everyone wants. in the end, both individuals grow as well. perhaps that's just more meaningful, even if it doesnt end up as a perfect relationship.



no offence to the friend i was talking about this to yup? just my 2 cents' worth.





anyway, i was talking to another friend, and i wanna post this question here. perhaps i'll get some interesting responses. hahaha

'what would you do if you found out that your bf/gf was not virgin?'

xoxo;
7:26 pm

roses are red
violets are blue
2+2=5
for very large values of 2.




ITS SO WARM THESE DAYS. i cant emphasise that enough. how is it that just a few weeks ago it was raining our pants off, but now the sun dries our skin like a fish out of water? its impossible! just a few minutes out of the aircon of plaza sing and i was like whew. but of course, i was drumming just abit before that, and also, i perspire easily. but still! its damn uncomfortable. i want my emo rainy weather back. rainy weather rocks and you know it!





some haikus make sense
but many others do not
refrigerator.




i was thinking of changing my blogskin. but after looking through millions (actually only 200) of exotic anime pictures, there wasnt any inspiration. usually when i see a nice pic i can use, the inspiration kicks me in the face instantly. its like the blogskin forms itself in my head and its up to me to convert that into html. but this time, no. maybe i shd change my niche. but i need adobe photoshop cs 3 to do anything good nowadays. and its so expensive! i've no money to do that. argh! so i need to appeal to advancedanime.com to like. get me something that allows inspiration to kick me in the face.

and you lame people out there, whatever you're thinking of right now, dont do it. >.>




roses are red,
violets are blue.
in Soviet Russia,
poem writes you!!

xoxo;
7:55 pm

a post of random stuff:



ITS SO WARM. where's my rainy emo weather!!



all my friends seem to be getting so emo. i was once the resident emo. now they're all so emo that i have to become the resident optimist!



jamming was shit today. but still fun as always. cocking up is always fun ;D playing collide and skipping the entire bridge, adding one extra chorus then not noticing it until the end is classic.



i must resolve never to go to that bitch's fb ever again. i need to look forward to my happiness.

xoxo;
7:53 pm

we were at kfc. ordered 4 meals. and i tell you, our total came to

DOLLARS ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY NINE and CENTS SIXTY FIVE only.

for crying out loud, place a properly trained individual at the frontlines. not an unsupervised, untrained ah tiong.

geez.

xoxo;
5:27 pm

yesterday we were playing a game called first impressions.

basic idea is that theres this piece of paper with your name on it. it goes around the table, and people write comments about their first impressions of you. the paper later comes back, and you see what people write.

so, i saw my piece of paper and i kinda.. didnt know what to make of it. right at the top were things like dao, shy, quiet. towards the bottom there was like, friendly, cheerful, jovial. so err. which exactly am i..?

i guess i give different people different feels. haha. its so weird, though, that half of people would think i'm dao and the other half would think i'm cheerful. these two adjectives are like polar opposites, and they're both used to describe me.

its just like someone once told me -- you're a big contradiction yourself.


so let me pose this question to my friends. no need to tag if you dont want to, but kinda think about it -- am i quiet or noisy? dao or friendly? good boy or bad boy?

it could burn your brain just thinking about it. hahaha


oh. on my list of impressions i also had a few each of 'cute boy' and 'handsome'. how flattering. i just hope it wasnt the guys that wrote those. >.>

xoxo;
2:20 pm

hello, love.



the sky's cloudy again.



i dont want to wonder how you'll survive.

xoxo;
12:23 pm

you know how you enter competitions hoping to win, yet coming back without anything?

have you ever won a competition where you enter not wanting to come back with anything? i just did it today. tops in WITS means nothing but extra work. -.-;

i guess it just makes the COS look better. maybe its the first step towards CFC too.

but it still sucks. OT, here i come. geez.

xoxo;
7:48 pm

oh goodie, i just found out that my parents have been reading my blog.

hor? hahaha. ahem. as requested i shall put this here. my parents are such lame people!

(i'm waiting for your response! yes youuuuuu twoooooo. ;D)

but yeah. heck! just write. let them see lor. hahaha. let them understand their dear son abit more. not that they dont! but more understanding is always fine right!

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after reading a certain friend's blog post (it was in chinese. and i could understand, i dunno, maybe a good 15% of it all) i remember why guys like to date younger girls. i also began understand the lolicon fetish.

i guess its because of the way a little (i'm referring to legal girls k) girl treats her boyfriend. the dedication, faith and eyes-on-you way of dating a guy definitely takes the cake (i was always told that if i had nothing good to say, dont say it. yes i do indeed have something not so good to say right now. shhhh ;D) .

its a pity that all young girls grow up. sometimes their mentalities change, they begin to despise relationships, then they turn around and decide not to get into relationships anymore. then they grow up even more. then they get married not because they love their partner, but because they're at the age where their parents begin to nag at them to get married. and by then who wants a 40+ year old single woman?

and that's the reason why we always fall in love when we're young. because time isnt enough. it slips away, just like that. no matter how many times we've fallen, we need to get back up. if you remain on the floor, someone might pick you up. but this person could push you right back down. then you'd stay on the floor again. and that's when our little girls grow up and reject love.

with rough evaluation of the above we can deem that, well, i guess girls are getting spoilt. GUYS! stop spoiling your girlfriends! hahaha. i may be biased, but i dont see any guys that reject love either. or maybe i just dont pay as much attention to guys as i do to girls. but to me, guys break up, get right back up and are on the streets again. i rarely see guys as deeply entrenched in the break-up mood as i see girls in it. but then the girls would see that as the guy being a playboy.

nah. its just that girlfriends rarely spoil their boyfriends, i guess. when i hit the ground, there was noone to pick me back up. i did it myself.

i guess i could never reject love. its definitely there; i'm just looking for it. when someone is as ready to embrace it as i am, not more or less, i guess that's when that's it.


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Random fact of the day #1: Shaun writes longer blog posts when inspired by others' equally, if not more, enlightening posts.

Random fact of the day #2: Shaun foresees a smattering of flame-posts on his tagboard after this (especially from a particular feminist friend of his).

Random fact of the day #3: Shaun wants his tagboard to come back to life!

xoxo;
8:32 pm

did you know, 10 hours of chat is something i could never have expected of you. maybe i should never have expected such a thing from you at all. because you failed terribly. because someone else just took the spot like that.


my mum told me that i'd never get over my previous girl until another girl comes and shows that she can fill her place. its quite an interesting thought. but i told my mum i was over it in 2 days. then she said i'm a playboy.

so i was to be a playboy or a brooding emo? hahaha. owells, relationships are lose-lose situations then. could i then conclude that a fling is much better? you're still either a playboy or a brooding emo, but there was never any emotion in the fling, so you'd have less to brood over. more play, less brooding.

relationships are all lose-lose in the end, i guess. whether or not they're just flings or relationships with real emotions in them. maybe it all boils down to what you want.

do you want someone to fill your hole, or is all you want, just to fill her hole?



you could be my future ex.

xoxo;
1:52 am