i'm sure everyone's heard of the drunked fist in kungfu. i hereby present the mahjong equivalent!

this actually happened yesterday while i was mahjonging

a is the friend in question, and he took just a teeeeny little bit of vodka halfway through the round. he got tired and started to play weird. even before i'd thrown my tile he'd be ready to take his. his face was all red and he was laughing and laughing like he was high or something. so, at one point during the game..

(dialogue was in half chinese. i just translated the entire bit)

a: argh my tiles are all messed up!

b: hahaha he has 5 flowers outside but only one tai.

a takes a tile.

a: walauuu how to play this... *rearranges tiles*

*rearranges tiles again*

*rearranges tiles for another minute or so*

a: oh. zi4 mo1. man3 tai1.

everyone: $#*%!@^#*


he had a full hand of marbles and was wondering how to play the hand. basket. that round earned him a good twenty bucks!! bleagh

next time, i'm gonna drink halfway through the match too >.>


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sidenote: I MISS PLAYING WITH A BAND!!! x.x

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1:08 pm

happy 牛 year, happy moo year! have an ox-spicious year ahead and lets hope that bullish times await.

and all that $^@*ing lame bullshit (pun intended) that people have been spouting because it just happens to to be the year of the cow this year.

i scream at their lame, over-used, 'i think i'm cool when doing this' puns.

seriously, do they really think its good? maybe little kids will be entertained. its abit like mayday. too different and its really messed up. but somehow so many people like it. i just dont understand why.

honestly, i think it wouldnt be too bad if it were just used once or twice. maybe one advert or two, maybe just a singular pun and that's it. its really not funny when half the world is using it, you hear it once every few seconds on the radio/tv, see it EVERYWHERE on fb, and even in some friends' blogs. everything in moderation! just hear it, laugh it off and dont use it again. because of this stupid bandwagon thing, listening to ads wishing people happy moo years has turned into living hell. people, you gotta have a mind of your own. reject these omg-lame-not-funny-overused puns and SCREAM AT THEM. like me.

i'm not gonna write a concluding sentence for this post.

oh, how ironic.

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2:26 am

shaun learnt yesterday that 'anticonform'ism is quite different from anti-conformism.

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11:28 am

since i've nothing to blog about, i might as well post videos. ;D

theme of the day: gothic lolita.


daddy oblivion.






kiddo oblivion.

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7:47 pm

part two.

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12:37 am

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7:31 pm

i was reading through blogs again, and something aaron wrote caught my eye.

remember that time we were both blogging about our thoughts about the fireworks? lets compare.



aaron's: hope my 2009 will be as beautiful as them.

mine: how nice it would be if this place were completely empty except for the few of us.

and

i wonder who i would most want to be with me here.


its like. look at these, i'm such a 'here and now' person while aaron is a forward-looking type. hahaha. just a little observation ;D

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7:33 pm

i'm rarely so quickly inspired to write a post, but all this new years stuff has gotten to me. i'm gonna be reflecting (ha) on

reflections


its quite a funny word. its literal meaning is this other image you see when you look into a puddle of water, or a mirror or something. yes, lame (aaron-style) if i were to talk about the literal meaning. hahaha. on the other hand, the meaning we're more referring to is more similar to the action of looking at a reflection, ergo, looking at themselves the way they are.

but anyway, so many people have been doing new years' reflections and resolutions that it kinda gets me thinking. why do people reflect and resolve at the new year? i think its even more alarming if i could add 'only' between 'resolve' and 'at'. so why?

certain blogs i have read state that its the need for a beginning. or an end. you reflect at the end, and resolve to make the next beginning better than the last.

-caution: from here on it becomes strictly opinion.-

but i would think this way (and concur with some of my more emo friends hurhur), that 1st jan is just a human creation. there would be no 1st jan if not for mankind. i'm not completely for the naturalistic argument, but to me there isnt really a 'beginning' at 1st jan. why do people celebrate the passing of the year rather than the passing of the month, or the decade, or the century or millenium? it seems, to me, quite contrived to only celebrate the start of a new year. maybe its because we tend to look at our timelines as divided by years (a la work years, fiscal years, academic years etc). or maybe its because the year is a comfortable enough length of time for a periodic large-scale celebration. celebrating each month would be too draining on organisers and consumers alike, while celebrating, say, a decade would mean we'd stress ourselves to death before our much-needed relaxation. maybe a more 'natural' explanation would be that the year is caused by the passing of each seasonal cycle, and so it is worth celebrating the coming of spring.

so, then again, i've only touched on why people might celebrate the year. however it goes, it does seem to me that celebrating the year is quite arbitrary. so then, why reflect at the year? maybe the passing of the year is a sign that we should begin anew, like the sprouting of shoots, or the growth of new leaves, or the waking of all the hibernating animals in spring. (it seems like the celebration of the year is now something the equator borrowed from temperate climates =x) maybe the end of the year means that we should let all our old-year's baggage go and be free again.

the latter seems promising, since the hallmark of successful people seems to be that they are the ones that are able to let go of their failures in the correct way, then build on these flaws. however, doing that only at the new year seems quite.. weak.

the former doesnt seem to work for me. man has always differentiated itself from nature and animals, so no reason to suddenly go back and be hippy and tree-huggy here, isnt that so? besides, spring doesnt come on 1st jan in many places. hahaha okay but that's a digression. and again, theres no real reason why we should begin anew only at the start of the year. (maybe we should let our convicts out of prison only after thoroughly celebrating nye)


my point? reflection should be done out of necessity, and not especially when the season calls for it. i said 'out of necessity' because over-reflection doesnt work sometimes. we call that 'thinking too much'.

life is itself a continuity. its much easier to see life as a conglomeration of separate, discontinuous periods (pri sch, sec sch, jc, ns etc.) but the fact is that man is always growing and is always changing. in the same way, reflection should be done often, and as far back as needed, to facilitate this flow. this way, one would continuously adapt to the changing environment (adapting in the correct or wrong way is another issue entirely =x) rather than be a conglomeration of separate, discontinuous entities that changes only with the digits of the year.

besides, reflection only at the new year may not be something that comes naturally to certain people. not reflecting at all through the year and somehow suddenly reflecting at the turn of the year may indicate action by the herd instinct. though that's an extreme case, lets have a look at something less extreme. new years resolutions. honestly, how many people make their list of resolutions and can definitively say that they have worked on it (we're not even talking about achieving a distinct success to any extent)?

here i wouldnt count really vague resolutions like 'be a better person' cos d'oh, its so easy to create examples of how one could have 'worked' towards it. besides, people always (maybe not always, on second thought) aim to be better and do try to achieve it. besides, 'better' is so subjective.

back to the topic, i would fairly easily claim that many people fail to acheve their resolutions. i may attribute this to insincerity in making the resolution. herd instinct; since so many people are making these resolutions, why not me? need to conform; my friends are all changing, i'd be left out if i didnt change along. in the end, these dont work because if you are who you are, then its hard to make certain drastic changes (we have all seen how hard it is to kick smoking and drugs without external intervention) and in the end, the will is strong but the body is frail and wheee resolution goes out the window.


now, what to reflect on? i have seen people who reflect only on the sad and unhappy moments and events, and people that reflect only on the happy moments (hurhur shame on you). i guess the former turns one emo and the latter turns one ego! hahaha.


well, digression aside, i think all these reasons are why i dont make new year's resolutions or special year-end or year-beginning reflections. i know i wont stick to my resolutions, or i'd just plain forget them, and that these reflections are not necessary since i'm only reflecting on them because its the new year. it would be so much nicer to me to resolve only when its really needed to resolve, or to reflect thoroughly enough when a certain memorable event happens, such that the event is happily forgotten and the lessons learnt soon, without the need to re-reflect at the end of the year.




that's why i dont reflect at the end/start of a year, and that's why i've given up doing new year's resolutions.

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9:44 pm

its 09. this means that i'm almost into my 2nd year of ns! which also means.. i'm getting older. reality check -- WTH I'M ALMOST TWENTY. great.

come to think about it, maybe that's why i'm always so melancholy during the year-end festive period. xmas means that the year is ending and (in the past) that school is gonna start. new year's means i'm getting older, and that school starts the next day. the reality of the whole issue just slaps your face when you least expect it.

maybe i'm not as optimistic as i think i am! the inner pessimist just shows its ugly face here and there. hahaha


its quite strange, because when i was watching the fireworks yesterday, what kept going through my mind would be something along the lines of 'how nice it would be if this place were completely empty except for the few of us'. not quite optimistic! haha. the other thing going through my mind would be 'i wonder who i would most want to be with me here'. its this kind of reflection that makes people just emo. ずううううーーーーー～～～ん。and its so annoying, because you cant really enjoy what's going on! i just saw the fireworks go up, and boom boom boom and somehow my brain was working harder than ever. and at that point the most i wanted was just to disappear from that myself and just enjoy the scene. *shrugs*

but i guess its just a pity that its not easy to find a quiet place to just sit and watch fireworks in singapore the way its easily possible in japan. you know how nice it would be to just be able to sit somewhere and wait an hour for 10 minutes of fireworks with your close friends. with noone else around to mess the atmosphere up.

i predict killer intent from a pro-nye activist saying that the atmosphere is having so damn many people around. hahaha



but one more reason to be melancholy during this festive season -- xmas eve dinner, xmas buffet, nye outing, ny's buffet, chinese new year... I'LL GET FAT. i want to be anorexic >.>


but oh, what i'd give to turn back time and be back where we were last night.

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2:06 pm